Heyyy, my beautiful people. As you some of you may know, I started the second round of my ICE treatment today. Honestly, I feel terrible and I have three more days of treatment after today. But, I had to write this post because it is NECESSARY.
Right now, there is so much going on in the world, at our jobs, in our families, in our bodies, in our relationships list goes on. And you say “Dis TEW Much!” Hahaha
Yesterday, after my meeting with Stem Cell Transplant doctor, I was overwhelmed. I was alone in the car, I immediately started praying and asking God for serenity, strength and to keep me focused on the end goal. I drove myself home thank you Jesus because I don’t remember much about the drive because I was deep in thought (YES I know that was dangerous but, like I said God def came through)
Anywho, about 7 minutes from my house, I received a message from one my former players, Kimani Jackson who I had the opportunity of coaching at Molloy College. It reads (And yes, I asked her permission before posting,):
Hey coach hen! It’s kimani this is my new number. But really I’m txting you bc I’ve told so many people this but not the person that needs to hear it the most. I always told my parents that you epitomize everything I want to be as a woman and that if I was to reach your age and be half of what you are I would be blessed and happy. You are so strong, confident, blessed, and unapologetically you and it has always inspired me from when I was a little girl an d all I knew of you was your basketball skills. you busted my a** every Tuesday and Thursday at my Aau practice, I was inspired, you played overseas and I wanted to accomplish the same things, and the way you never took it easy on me EVER just stuck with me. Then God placed you in my life again and I was older and I got to know more of you. I fell in love with the fact that you are so honest at all times, genuine, supportive in your special way, positive, strong and confident in yourself and so trusting in GOD! Then you lost your mother, and I went to the funeral and I observed you and all that shined through at all times was strength!! Yet again I was inspired! and then you weren’t my coach anymore and everyday of my senior year I wished I could look at the bench and have someone that would tell me I suck when I suck or go for thirty bc they can’t guard you! I cried when I found out you had cancer but then when I spoke to you, yet again that confidence and strength shined through when you hugged me and was stronger than I was in that moment you once again amazed me. You came to a game and you have no idea what it meant to me to speak to you after and just hear your words and advice. And you was rocking t he short haircut and I knew you would bc you always told me “kimani it’s just hair!” I went home to tell my dad, leave it up to coach hen to rock cancer! At a time where you could be at your worst, the confidence and strength that I’ve admired in you all this time seems to shine the brightest!!! And I ju st want you to know that I look up to you for those reasons and you continue to inspire me everyday!!! I love youu
Kimani, you know I love you and THANK YOU for seriously being my guardian angel of the day, when you had no idea. And you know, I want you to continue to conquer, work hard and be better than me. Enjoy the fruits and labors of Adulthood, and when you need some “Coach Hen” advice, I always here.
BUT Y’ALLLL WHEN, I telllllll youuuuuuu I did not know whether to laugh or cry. My God, Hmmm I getting teary eyed thinking about it. God will come through, in the clutch, when you least expect it!! He will send whoever, whatever to deliver his message. (I laughed)
Everyday, I get up, pray, and read my current devotion “God will carry you through!” Sometimes, when I feel like I’m having a moment, God reminds me that He is sufficient enough. Yes, this road is difficult, there are times when I just do not have answers, when I sit in my room in darkness and process what is going, but I am constantly reminded that this path was chosen for me. I will continue to hold onto my faith, my relationship with God, continue fighting, and eventually this too shall pass.
Everyone has their own lives, own problems, own situations, own struggles and I just want you remember whatever you are going through remember God will carry you through.
I just want thank everyone who has been reading, commenting, sharing etc. It has been a blessing to me and keeps me fighting for God so He gets all the glory. Transparency make not work for you, but it has for me. I just want to live not die, but while I’m living I will always give God the glory. Anyway, thank you & please feel free to share. You may never know your situation could be helping someone else.