This has been an emotional week for me filled with highs and lows.
From Father’s Day to Golden State Warriors losing the NBA Championship (I’m still not over it, so don’t dare bait me into another depressing convo) to my mother’s 58th birthday to Ava’s promotional ceremony(my niece/daughter who is graduating kindergarten today) to my second to last treatment today.
I woke up this morning (a blessing in itself) feeling blahh, Clarine stopped by my house to pick up my dad for Ava’s kindergarten graduation. Knowing that I could not make it, I mustered up enough energy to go see her off. Talk about proud parent moment, hmmphh this is my first born, I raised her up until she was 3 (thanks Clarine & Shawn), so seeing her put me in a better mood. Over the last few months, I have watched Ava deal with my illness in a manner indescribable. She has brought me flowers, gifts, took me to the Liberty game and pure joy. I’ve observed her after school come say Hi to me in my room and then leave to go upstairs to Jaylen’s room so, that she doesn’t “bother” me, creep around to not make so much noise, ask questions and listen intently about what Auntie Janele is going through and most importantly tell me Yaya loves me when I least expect it. And, even though she is five, she is very special and has no clue the magnitude of what her genuine acts of love & kindness has provided me. So, when I see her I try my best to keep a smile on my face. Congratulations Ava, I’m so proud of you and I love you. (Clarine, let her read this and help comprehend what I’m saying, lol)
Over the last two weeks, I have been dealing with low WBC(White Blood Cells) in which I received injections to boost the counts. We need our white blood cells to fight infections. I hate the injections not only do they hurt (Imagine a booster shot or meningitis shot) but, it makes my body vulnerable to muscle strains, sprains, aches. The injection is necessary because I refuse to be in someone’s hospital when I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. (Come on, SomeBody, Ain’t Nobody got time for that)
So, June 20th, my mother’s birthday, was on time and necessary, it’s significance refocused me for these last two weeks. It symbolized not only the strength, faith, perseverance, trust, acceptance, hope, and patience of my mother but, how I applied those components of her on my own journey thus far. Pushing through, praying, keeping faith and trusting God was reiterated to me.
I felt compelled to write this, but there may be someone reading this, that may be going through something right now, you may feel like you can’t catch a break but, I just want to encourage you and tell you I have already prayed for you. All you need is faith, the size of a mustard seed, believe and have faith that His love, grace and mercy is sufficient enough to get you through. I love you all, be blessed, keep the faith, and live your life to the fullest.
One more treatment, two more weeks.