“It is finished”
I was not going to write a blog, but when, I woke up this morning at 6:15, God had other plans. Every day, I wake up thinking about my mother and what she was doing on this day last year. So, I like to scroll through photos and videos on Google + from last year. However, being that Easter was in March this year, I recovered a video from April 5th 2015 Easter Sunday.Even though, she was in the ICU on Easter Sunday, she still praised the Lord. It is extremely ironic that 3 days later, my mom passed away.(That’s another post for when the day comes) Oh yeah, excuse my none singing voice.
So, I’m going to be honest, it was a bittersweet celebrating Easter Sunday this year. I was ecstatic that I was feeling well enough (my off chemo week) to attend church and blessed that I could spend it with family. But, also this is the first of many Easter Sundays without my mother and one of the first with multiple family members missing. There was no one to cook our normal Easter Sunday family dinner , therefore everyone was out doing their own thing. And that’s fine, but the feeling of being motherless around a time when Jesus died to show His unconditional love is indescribable.
I love Easter, that Jesus loved us so much that He was beaten, ridiculed, tortured, crucified, and died for us. That is unconditional love, Jesus allows us to feel His presence when we need Him, when we think we don’t need Him, and when we are going to need Him. Because of His example my mother exemplified what unconditional love is showing” her husband, children, grandchildren, siblings, godchildren, extended family, friends and students that God is who He says He is. Our faith in knowing that even though we can not physically see Him this is why He had to do it. Because Jesus rose again, He lives! My journey is extremely difficult, but God’s unconditional love, grace and mercy is sufficient enough, I will get through this and I will LIVE not DIE!
“neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:39